How do you feel about yourself? September 16 Notes from Papa via Paul Gray
To my most special child,
I so want you to see yourself and feel about yourself the way I feel about you. You may never have given any thought to how you feel about yourself, but I know. You have a deep-seated tendency to dislike, disapprove, loathe and even hate yourself. All My children have that tendency because you listen to the wrong voice. That’s why you put such a premium on accomplishments, achievements, titles and positions. They give you a false sense of who you are and you use them to compare yourself with others so that you don’t let your mind go to the depths of how disappointed you are with yourself.
Your mind, influenced by your five senses as they perceive the world and listen to evil, thinks that the real you (your essence) is not good, inadequate, marred, not efficient, flawed, imperfect and actually bad. All those are lies. Unfortunately religion has taught many, if not most of My children, that they are bad to the core… totally depraved… that their heart is desperately wicked and no one can even fathom how bad it is.
You have focused on your mistakes and poor choices and have compared your abilities, achievements and poor choices to others and incorrectly judged yourself as not measuring up, less than, not enough. Deep down, you even hate yourself… you just don’t let your mind and emotions go there.
That’s why you sometimes have outbursts of anger. You’re not really mad at someone else or something, you’re angry with yourself for not measuring up… not being as good as you’d like to be. All those thoughts and feelings are lies from evil. They are hell itself. They are not true.
You are disappointed with, disgusted with, not pleased with a mirage… a myth, a fictitious imagination that doesn’t exist. It’s your “false self.” Most people don’t know this and they can’t fathom the good news of My grace because they don’t believe God could ever like, love and be pleased with them and they perish.
My overriding desire and will is that no one perish. I want you to know the real you, and I have hidden and sealed the real you in Me! The mistakes you’ve made, the foolish decisions you’ve made, the selfish thoughts and actions you’ve had are not you. They are temporal, fleeting distortions of the real you. That’s why I continually remind you that I love you unconditionally, I delight in you and I have made you pure, holy, innocent, without fault, right with Me and perfect for Me!
You have My DNA. The real you (who you really are) is good, right, perfect and one with Me. I want you to love the real you like I love you and let My truth make you free!